Monday, March 29, 2010

The puzzle piece that just doesn't fit..

Ever feel like you are just kinda awkwardly out of place? That is how I have been feeling lately. Not in a completely bad way persay, but I'm kinda stumped. I haven't been myself...I have kinda felt withdrawn from the things that I LOVE and have brought me so much comfort. Exercise and socializing have almost been a foreign thought as of late...I feel change coming...(i know, duh, Matthew is graduating....) I just keep thinking..Heavenly Father, just help me to be able to hear your voice so that I know what it is that I need to do.
I have watched so many good friends move away...its hard to keep starting over. You build up a friendship, and then it seems like it just slips away with the miles that are between us and them. I don't want it to be like that, but it just kinda happens. I cry when I think about the friends that we have made, the memories that Max has of people, and then the day comes when I ask him if he remembers so and so, and he looks at me confused and says....nope. I mean, these people were around more than family, and all it takes is enough time to pass and he forgets them.
I don't know what life has in store for me and my family. Heck I don't have the slightest clue where I will be in 6 months. I know I am not alone in this quandry. In fact, I know many people that are trying to figure out this same thing. I just really feel uncomfortable not 'knowing'. I'm a planner through and through.
I know that I just need to "Be still and know that He is God"

I don't know why I felt like posting this...but somehow I feel better.

Boys all dressed up for Church

Boys all dressed up for Church
They really do love eachother so much. Max is always asking to hold Sam.

Sam is really excited to play outside, can't you tell

Blessing Day

Blessing Day
This was a really special day. We blessed Sam in Missoula, Montana at my parents house so that all of our family could be there. It was the last Sunday before Christmas, almost everyone was there, and the lights of the Christmas tree were on. So so so special.

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